Five years ago I was given my first gift for you: a red, white and blue carters dress and romper set.

Five years ago I enjoyed fireworks so close they shook my body. I smiled ear to ear. I loved them.

Five years ago I was the happiest I have ever been.

I’ve yet to watch fireworks again.

I miss you so much, baby girl. How are you so far in my past, yet a part of my everyday even though you’re gone. Life is so unfair. Even after all this time, it’s always you. Always. Mommy loves you.