I haven’t been able to write lately.

I am blank. I am sad and happy and lost and confused all at the same time. Life has just thrown a bunch of stuff at us lately, and I’m trying to figure out a way to handle it. I know that things will be ok, but man… it has been a really weird few weeks here. I miss Kenley so incredibly much these past few weeks. I feel like she’s being forgotten ( I know that she isn’t but it still just bugs me).

Today while talking to Shane about Christmas time, and his vacation around then, I said “Well you will need to have the 29th off obviously” to which he replied “why?”.

Why? 

It’s Kenley’s birthday.

After I said that to him he goes “oh I wasn’t thinking about that”.

And it just stings. It stings so much to know that there was a moment in his day where she is not the front and center thought in his mind. I can’t blame him; I know that this is going to happen. I am just so sad about it.

I just miss her. I miss her so much. I wanted to know her and I am so sad that I cant get to know her.