**trigger/pregnancy talk warning**
I wanted to ask for some advice from loss moms who are currently pregnant, or have gone on to have their rainbow. Actually, you know what, anyone can give their input. If you feel comfortable talking to me about your feelings re: all things rainbow pregnancy & the death of your child- please comment! I really want all the input you guys have to offer.
I’m not quite sure how I’m supposed to be ok with baby things; diapers, wipes, clothes… I don’t think there is going to be a time where I feel comfortable walking into Target, walking to the baby clothes section and buying something without feeling sadness. Does this change? How did you/will you approach this situation?
How do you feel about seeing newborns/children around the age of the child you lost?
I want to be excited about thinking of names for this baby, and working on her Nursery…but I can’t. I spent so much time working on and in Kenley’s nursery so I can’t even begin to think about tearing it down. I know that I don’t want this new baby’s nursery to be exactly the same as Kenley- the opposite actually. I want this baby to have it’s own identity, and I’m struggling with that. How did you/will you handle this situation? I think this is the hardest for me; I spent most of my time in K’s nursery rocking her, and singing to her.
I know that it’s very personal, grief, and I know that I’m doing the best that I can but I am not about to go stand in the diaper aisle for a few hours until…I don’t even know what would happen. I do not think exposure therapy is something that is good for grief.
What are your opinions?
Today Kenley should be 8 months old. My heart hurts.