I came here to write this post and talk about what this day is, and how important it is…but, I don’t want to.

I just want to grieve my Daughter. I want to dream of her being here in my arms. I want to allow my brain to go to that dark place and remember her…There aren’t words to explain how deeply my heart is broken. A mother isn’t supposed to bury her child, or plan their funeral, or leave the hospital without their baby.

Kenley, my sweet daughter, you should be here with us. I will miss you forever, until the day I hold you in my arms again. I am so sorry that I couldn’t save you. You deserved so much more. I live with that guilt every single day. Some people may think that the pain lessens as the years go on…but it doesn’t. There is a hole in my heart that will never be filled.

I love you.