Remember the post I just wrote about having very little rational brain left?
Yeah it’s officially gone.
Alden’s movement was decreased all day.
I had a weird pain in my left side.
Used my Doppler six times- all was well.
Blood Pressure checked out at 117/77 (kinda low for me).
17 kicks in an hour (kinda low too).
Yet…somehow we ended up at L&D tonight.
The next ten days need to hurry the hell up. I cannot handle this stress, nor can my poor sweet husband. The PTSD is killing us; every time they can’t find her HB immediately we both feel sick to our stomach and want to cry.
10 days. 10 days. 10 days.
Our Sweet K. 
Why can they not deliver her now? Is it because of lung development ? Hang in there mama … Lots of love and hugs being sent out to you.❤
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Yeah, pretty much. They say she’s safer inside than outside which whatever I don’t really agree with that but I’m no doctor! Thank you for sending love! We definitely need it and all the good vibes 💗😘
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Hey girl, just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you. This wait, anxiety, PTSD sounds terrible and hope this week goes by as fast as it can and that you a sweet beautiful baby in your arms. Big hugs.
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I’m glad everything checked out OK, and good job on your BP! I know this PTSD is so so hard and I wish I had advice to offer but it’s just something you have to get through one bit at a time. FWIW, this baby’s pattern has been nothing but erratic the past couple of weeks and I just have to remind myself that a change in pattern is part of his pattern. For example, after being active pretty much all day on Friday, yesterday was a sleepy day. Whenever I feel it’s a sleepier day I basically chain myself to the couch for kick counts, which is horrible, but it’s what I need to do to get through. Hang in there and remember you crossed one more day off the calendar, which is huge.
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thinking of you, and Alden – and Kenley – as hopefully these last few days speed by for you until sweet Alden is hopefully safely here and in your arms ❤
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